the letter that I would never send

Hey. Yes, it’s me. You might be wondering why am I writing to you or whatever but I just want to, or maybe I need to. I’ve been seeing you for as long as I can remember but I never had the chance nor the guts to ever try to talk to you or start a small conversation or something. It’s not that I’m shy or anything close to that, it’s just that I don’t want to waste your time and my time talking about nonsense and trying to figure out where small talks could lead us. Maybe I’m scared that I would annoy you, but that’s not the main reason. Not at all. So here, I just wrote this letter for you. Well, it would be great if you’d take some time reading the next few sentences. Alright here we go.

So why did I wrote this letter. Okay, please don’t assume that this, this shit is a love letter because it’s not. You won’t see any “oh goodness you’re so amazing please be mine”. No, not that kind. This letter, is created to let you know that I’m amused by your existence. Well, basically I’m amused by everyone else’s existence and stories. But about this amusement, I want to know you better. I find you interesting. I find you fascinating. I find the little things that you do strange yet still cute. This letter was to let you know that not everyone sees you the way you think they see you. That you’re worth more than that, we’re more than all the judgments and words that they throw at us. Most of all, I find you original. 

But then I realized, all these things – these things that I’ve said and wrote, they’re not really you, instead they’re me. It’s not how you show yourself but how I see you – how I want to see you. I see you as this and that, but really, I know nothing. I don’t know what you’re doing when you’re staying late at night. I don’t know the reasons behind your smiles, if they’re real or not. And I think I was being unfair, all these times I was. I judged you before I even knew you. 

No words. When I finally summed up all these ideas, no words.

But I’m hoping, that soon I would be able to write about you. How you sleep, laugh, smile, cry and what are your favorite books and how much you love pizza. I want to. And I hope that I would be given the chance to know you better, so that next time, I would have the words, the real ones, to at least define your amusing existence. 

 

Valentine’s Day Special: Against All Odds

For the past weeks, I’ve been thinking of a good idea for my Valentine’s Day Special. I was thinking about defining love, and all its components or whatever. But I just don’t feel like it. I mean, for once I don’t want to pretend that I know everything about it – when in real life, I don’t.. want to stop eating pizza. I’m so random.

So last February 12, 2013, my brother and his girlfriend celebrated their 2nd Year Anniversary through the Internet (via Skype). Why? Long-Distance Relationship, sir. And if someone out there needs a great story, then their story would just exceed your expectations. The boy is from the Philippines; the girl is from London. Gotta hate the distance but gotta love the trust, loyalty and real love inside it. Great job, brother. Great job.

I would like to share this video that my sweet brother made for her girlfriend:

I’m not here to tell how they met. I’m not here to tell their struggles. But I’m here to tell everyone that in whatever form, whatever situation, and/or whatever distance that separates people, it/they cannot be a major/sufficient reason to easily give up on someone you love. If you love someone, then break through the walls and reach for the moon.

No matter what, fight for it. Giving up and letting someone go would never be the first option – but they would always be there, waiting at the second position.

It’s amazing, how people can create different love stories – from a long-distance relationship, loser-guy-and-a-popular-girl, badass-man-and-a-sweet-girl, rich-guy-and-a-poor-girl to many others. We’re different in many ways, our personalities are unique – and so our love stories.

Life is awesome. And it’s AWESOME-R with love at the center of it. Oh it’s nice to feel inspired. Happy Valentine’s Day!

 

So It’s Love?

Since valentine’s day is getting nearer, many think that now is the perfect time to post some kacorny-han and/or some cheesy lines that would attract the eyes of the readers to either like or comment on their dramas. Someone’s bitter here.

But me, I chose to ask all of you about your experiences on the past VD celebrations. Have you ever dated someone during the said day? They made you feel special right? Of course, let us not exclude that romantic night that forever would be remembered. Sweet right?

But really, do we really need to care so much about LOVE(Romantic) these days? Or do we really know the meaning of that four-lettered word? Or perhaps, we’re just trying too hard to know what it really is. When will we realize that we found love, not admiration? It’s hard to fall in love because we’re all afraid to fall, to be rejected, to be judged, to be turned down, and to be entitled to such responsibility. Yes, many are trying; some are surviving but the opposite is still undeniable. Do we really care about real romantic love?

It’s getting harder to think of what’s our basis when we love – is it about the face, the look, the body, the eyes, the hair, the nose, or perhaps the voice? Reality is, people nowadays give more attention to the physical appearance or traits of a person. I know you will all agree. Usually, we’re giving love a different meaning. Many meanings were given already, and as far as I’m concerned, we’re still giving our own meaning to the word. I just hope that the meaning won’t be as worst as the meaning of discrimination/racism/stereotyping.

I know that there are still people out there who’re looking for a good personality that would eventually melt their hearts right from the get go. If not, it can be done by process. They still exist.

So now, do you really know what love is? How to love? Why do we love? When and where do we love? Are there rules before falling in love? Or perhaps, we should wait forever for that one love. Life’s hard; to love is harder.

Before anything, let us first try to be observant of our society and see the different faces of love. Perhaps, you can look at the mirror and ask yourself.

Personally, I do have my definition of love. I do believe that love would play a big role for the development of somebody. Rejections and acceptance would all be part of that word “love” for we are trying to fight for something that would improve us and give us the maturity that we need. By failing, we learn so many things, and from there we can be stronger. Love is a positive thing that is stained by the society and the human behavior. There’s nothing wrong about love, we’re just the one giving a poor meaning out of it. I also believe that it can really wait; but not destiny. We should try to work on something to be able to see if we will be loved or not. For love is patient, it can wait until the right time comes. Another thing, we lovers, must not give any wrong impression to what love is.

Love changes overtime because of many reasons; it can either be better or be worse. The thing is, we must learn to rise up from the fall and grow. From there on, we can assure that the next love would be better than the first one.

Anyway, let us all have a great Valentine’s Day! Share the love and joy of being alive. From there, I hope that we can all see the true face of LOVE without the masks and covers that we’ve put in into it.

Turn Boredom into Happiness

When you’re bored, you usually find things that might entertain you. You tend to try things that didn’t interest you that much last time. Then suddenly, you’ll find them entertaining and they’ll start to be your hobbies.

Now I’m here to promote a page here on my blog named “My Doodles”. Go check it out by clicking on the titles of the drawings. It’s free to share, well if you’ll have the guts to share them. Here are some of them:

 

So for more, just check out the page. I’ll be glad if you did.

One thing more, I decided to start posting my song compositions here. I have 20 in total but I think I would not post them all. Besides, some of them will be protected by passwords. Just click the song titles on the “My Song Compositions” page for more information.

Sometimes we must really take a break from life’s dramas and complications. Let us try to do simple things that’ll make us happy and soon we would be able to handle things correctly. Do the things you love and don’t let anyone stop you from doing that. Have fun! Find your happiness and you’ll find life.

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